|26.12.2023| Dark sense of humor

• She’s got very dark sense of humor

• Oh, she does – Matt nodded along 😜

Most of people may being offended by that conversation. Somehow, in contrast, I took it as a compliment. It is hard to conclude whether my sense of humor is nature or it has been developing by heaps of hours watching Stand up comedy (STC) but probably both. When I first started in 2015, it was simply for leisure time. Just me w so many hours cracking up by watching from YouTube. Years afterward I reckon STC building me the knowledge of culture/ history , gave me the tools to connect w people which effect strongly to my confidence and self esteem.

Since going back VN, I reckon another side of STC on me. You did not reckon your sense of humor was “dark” until you living at the place which “sacarsm” term does not exist. All of sudden I reckon I was two person who are interchangeable according which languages I speak. Out of my surprise, I offended people in the way that I was not acknowledged I had done. All of sudden, I reckon my sense of humor may not that funny anymore. And yes, I tried to turn it down. I did not joke as often what I had thought inside my head. It is no one’s fault but I believe good comedian should know better about his crowd before making jokes.

This reminded me about Ali Wong bringing her husband (now ex!) to comedy gig on the very first few dates. She did that not to flex about career but giving him a better context about her true self. Yes, a very domestic cooking Asian type still goes wild on stage. Many incidents happened, couple relationships I destroyed..throughout the year, certain lesson I’ve got for no one but rather than myself:

1. Does it mean I would turn my dark sense of humor down? NO, I don’t . The lesson here is being wiser w the crowd I have. You should not use the same jokes / enthusiasm level w all crowd. Be wiser Huong oi 🤓

2. My daily jokes do not reflect my true self, the love for family / partners / friends who I care deeply. More often than not, you know I stop caring if i stop joking around with you. Jokes are another love language of mine besides food.

3. Training yourself to take nothing personally

Peace ☮️