|22.02.2025|

Hit year 8 in Vietnam, never been the same Viet I once known myself. Many things I slowly learn it back to match with the mass. Many things, I keep my own thinking, get my own lesson on trust, relationship/ friendship. I guess as you are getting older, it is less purely black/ white, but more grey areas. Many acts that I used to wonder “why treat me that way”, “why behave that way”….

• a prostitute on Bui Vien street, Phuket lane may once drove me crazy, then now I reckon all has a life to carry on. Would I say the same if I have two kids are waiting for me to feed them?

• Would I act the same way, if I need to count on penny each month to pay rent like my life in Melbourne?

• Would I was willing return VN if my parents saw myself as investment…

  
  

  Then I reckon I have no shameless on those days which I had worked for multiple hours, bars mixed with 3-4 hours of sleeping. I was not shy talking when I slept in the living room with curtains to make it look like a room…. I left Mel with zero debts.

  
  

  I guess many roads that you took are one way street. Some characters may be great but also bad for other environment. You could never turn back, and many times in life you would wonder how I may be different from now. Someone once said, play with the cards you have, not the cards that you wish you have. I did not reckon it as a profound lesson years later, even when that person left this earth, he still somehow taught me… slowly.

  
  

  So even you are broken….for society standards, maybe live with pride :)